I have an attitude problem.
If I have a seriously negative first experience with something, I find it incredibly difficult to get past it. For instance, if I walk into a restaurant and get a poor welcome, it is very unlikely I’ll enjoy my time there.
I shouldn’t hold this kind of grudge. It is unfair, and devoid of grace. I claim to have been, or to being, saved by grace. Yet every Sunday (at least) I pray and ask God to treat me the way I treat others. To receive grace, I fully believe I must offer it toward others; yet sometimes I am horrible at doing so.
I do believe, however, that I am making progress. For years I didn’t recognize this pattern in myself. Now I have.
So now I must do something about it.
The good thing, the bad thing, the challenging thing, is that I now no longer have an excuse NOT to move towards grace.
I will need help. Feel free to ask me how I am doing.