Even when I am not paying attention, God is.

Have you ever been writing or speaking and found yourself surprised by a sentence that slipped out of you? I know I’ve had this happen many times, the most recent being this morning.

I was updating the “about” page of this blog, when I typed this:

Even when I am not paying attention, God is.

I’m pretty sure I had thought it before I typed it, but as I finished typing it I paused and reread it. Or maybe I just read it for the first time.

Could I have written something without having thought it first? That seems a silly question until I change it to this way: “Could I have said something without having thought it first?”

Undoubtedly the answer to the latter is yes. Which means to me the answer to the former is also affirmative.

Now it seems I’ve lost the original point of this post, which is actually appropriate. When I am chasing logic or some facsimile thereof down the turns of previously established but unidentified mental trails, God’s faithfulness is, to borrow a word I never use in regular conversation, steadfast. I don’t use the word ‘steadfast’ often enough for it to come to mind, yet it did. Almost, or surprisingly, without my having thought about it first.

My mind has always, or at least for as long as I can remember, wandered like a pinball from one thing to another. I waste some time everyday beating myself up for it; for not being able to stay focused. For not paying attention. So, now, to consider that even when I am not paying attention, God is, brings me hope and settles me into God’s ungraspable grace.

And that’s where I really need to be right now. I bet you do, too.

Published by Steve Heyduck

I am a United Methodist pastor, currently appointed as Pastor of OvillaUnited Methodist Church in Ovilla, Texas. I am also the husband of Rachel and father of 3 - Robbie, Eliza, and Liam. I am an ardent nonconstantian and a postmodern Christian. (I am also happy to talk with you about what these things mean to me)

One thought on “Even when I am not paying attention, God is.

  1. Yes He is. He is always watching! Even when people around us isn’t watching. He Knows all, sees all, He is everywhere! He often does things to try to get our attention back too. Thank you for sharing.

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